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25 October 2004 @ 09:19 pm
i will try, i will try  
from a sunday school children's song, Who Will Try? (midi, 5.07kb) (link removed):


Who will try to be a sunbeam
When the sky is gray?
Who will spread a little sunshine
On a rainy day?
I will try, I will try,
While the clouds are in the sky,
I will try to be a sunbeam
On a rainy day!

Who will try to count their blessings
When the sky is gray?
Who will find the silver lining
In a rainy day?
I will try, I will try,
While the clouds are in the sky,
I will try to count my blessings
On a rainy day!

Who will try to chase off shadows
When the sky is gray?
Who will thank the Lord for sending
Us a rainy day?
I will try, I will try,
While the clouds are in the sky,
I will try to chase off shadows
On a rainy day!



behind the sunny tune of these cheery lyrics and joyful exclamation marks, who can even begin to guess the dreary depths of dark depression which first inspired the posting of the song?

why must we always have to go through so much just to learn, why do we always have to make a mess of things before we realise, again, that His way is always the best, that there is never need to hurry, no need to worry, that He is always in control?

In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. -- Proverbs 16:9

why is it only through such trials and tribulations that we can be moulded into Your perfect plan, why must it only come to such tests that my blind eyes finally see how i am so ready to chuck my word to You out the window and compromise on all things despite all i had so pridefully proclaimed?

again, i have proven myself unfaithful; putting You first in my life was only conditional. You have shown me the wrongness of it all; You have opened my eyes. help me never to shift my focus away from You again, for that's when all things start to go wrong.

i will try to chase off shadows when the sky is gray, i will thank the Lord for sending me a rainy day. i will try, i will try, while the clouds are in the sky, i will try to chase off shadows on a rainy day.

thank You for family, thank You for sister, and thank You for friends. thank You that You are a living God who speaks, thank You that i can know that You are the real true God, again and again, doubt after doubt, faithless as i am, thank You that You are a faithful God. thank You that You always allow for u-turns.

i will try, i will try, hard as it is, and though i know i still will fall, time and again, honour me for trying, Lord, that one day i may truly make it, and look back at the beauty of the process of it all, being wondrously crafted into Your perfect plan. :)
 
 
Mood: mellow
Music: who will try? -- edith sanford tillotson