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31 October 2004 @ 01:21 am
too much to give thanks for  
In my life, Lord,
Be glorified, be glorified;
In my life, Lord,
Be glorified today.



Surely the arm of the Lord is not too short to save, nor his ear too dull to hear. -- Isaiah 59:1

truly, this second round of alpha has been great, different as it is from the first. sometimes, i might tend to think, maybe i'm getting a little "too blessed to be blessed"; but no, apparently, not, yet. there have been many times when some of us thought/felt that it was gonna be a disappointment; but no, He has done it again. looking back at everything now, it had really seemed just so far away, so impossible, at that time, as with our first alpha.

if i were to attempt to tell of my life story, i don't think i could ever even hope to finish telling of His abounding grace throughout the entirety of my life, for there's simply been too much, too much to give thanks for. seriously, if you've been picked back up from the danky dumps, lifted up from the depths of depression, turned back from the impulses of suicide, and basically had the whole wretched wreck of your life set right back in good order once again, i think, you'd wanna hang on tight and never ever let go too, for all the good that He has done for you. and that's me, all summed up in one short(!) sentence.

really touched by what you people shared today, even if you might have thought that it wasn't very much at all, but it meant a whole lot to me. :) although i only said so little today, and probably in a pretty sheepish tone too... but you all know that i write much better than i speak what. *self-praise*

actually i really have a lot to say and so much to give thanks for one, but then it didn't really seem very relevant to the question leh... actually, one of the most recent major things that i really have to thank Him for, is for setting me into the right perspective. and once i got to see the problems i was facing from that point of view, i was much better able to let go, much much easier than i would actually have been by my own strength. and i really, really thank Him for that. i know it doesn't sound very impressive a testimony at all here, this way i'm describing it, but the true wonder of experiencing it, the enormous burden He has lifted off my shoulders, is really beyond the description of my words (due to the lack of skill or whatsoever).

i remember, not long before i was set in perspective, before everything just clicked, i was praying desperately and i asked, why does the song i had learnt since i was a kid in the church's kindergarten, "what a friend we have in Jesus", go: "Oh, what peace we often forfeit, /Oh what needless pain we bear, /All because we do not carry /Ev'rything to God in prayer!" why do the lyrics say that, when i had already carried everything that was bothering me, to You, in prayer... why was i still in unpeace and pain? that very night, i was set free again.

sometimes, i wonder, do i have to go through all this, time and again, only so that i can be of witness to Him and His great power? but whatever it is, i'm just so glad that life in Christ is (or will eventually be, if it isn't yet for you) a victorious one. amen?
 
 
Mood: indescribable
Music: in my life
 
 
 
joannejoooanne on October 30th, 2004 10:31 am (UTC)
but the true wonder of experiencing it, the enormous burden He has lifted off my shoulders, is really beyond the description of my words (due to the lack of skill or whatsoever).

i totally understand this. cos i feel the same way too. praise God. :)
hey next sat shud we meet? no alpha but we can go have coffee and study together! finally i have you and possibly yn to myself,MYSELF. ahhahaha -evil laughter- keep me posted.
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on November 1st, 2004 11:58 pm (UTC)
yay! :) haha i don't mind meeting to study... in fact, we can even study in church. hiak hiak! then can go for coffee later or something... i actually used to study very often at the mp starbucks but i think nowadays there overcrowded liao. :
(Anonymous) on October 30th, 2004 07:18 pm (UTC)
*ehem* im reading this blog lehhhhh....

*protest!!!!!!

senny
joannejoooanne on October 30th, 2004 09:15 pm (UTC)
ahahahahAHHAHA seeing your comment made me laugh.

we're making boon feel popular. hahahaha.
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on November 1st, 2004 11:57 pm (UTC)
i've always been popular!!!
joannejoooanne on November 3rd, 2004 12:44 am (UTC)
eh ok. study together on sat ah. needa start my stupid revision. arrange time soon.
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on November 3rd, 2004 08:34 pm (UTC)
in church? or some coffee joint? or somewhere else? where you prefer?

i skipped school today, going down to church to study soon and to shun bian get pastor to sign my mission trip form. :) how come you never update nowadays already? still sick ah?
(Anonymous) on October 31st, 2004 08:15 am (UTC)
Yeah, He has in fact made a difference to my life, and I think it's a pretty big one=) Praise lord. And, just like wat I have said during the alpha on sat, I am so very de happy to be a part of the family of Christ=) And indeed, I also have lots to say!! But I am also not good with words ( neither am I good at writing) haha so I can only keep all my thoughts within me, and for Him to know only... Hee..

ulu
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on November 1st, 2004 11:56 pm (UTC)
yeah we're glad to have you in the family of Christ too! :D but got blessings must share your story with us leh, cannot be selfish! haha. :p
(Anonymous) on October 31st, 2004 11:11 am (UTC)
hey, i'm writing my testimonial (?!?) here cuz you guys prob wont be seeing me in the next few weeks cuz of exams and work after that. jus wanna thank everyone for a great alpha, no kid! many times i think abt all the effort you guys put in every sat, from the stuff like setting up the projectors, the arranging of chairs, the food, the mikes, the powerpoint slides, the guitar, seemingly small stuff like that actually amount to plenty of effort! i'm not to sure who exactly are the people behind it but i jus wanna thank everyone at alpha and tell you that your efforts are very much appreciated. i can almost imagine ruth waving her hand (it's me! it's me) like a headless chicken now. heh, many thanks to ruth for being the administrator and senny too for your generous and gracious sharing during our small grp thing. and of course our other small grp ppl have been great as well: boon, erqing, liling, aunty diana, zhiling, ruth and baocheng. heh, i will miss you all. mebbe someday can jio you all go swimming or harrys. in the meantime, good luck for exams and happy mugging! =)
(Anonymous) on October 31st, 2004 06:00 pm (UTC)
van,
thank you, thank you ... hahahha...when i first saw the name "list"...I searched for my name. initially, i was q sad that u didnt write my name. *boo-hoo* BUTTTTT, surprise, surprise, I was single out!!! *satisfied grin*

do well for u exams ar!! ;) looking forward to eating KFC with u next time. *hehehehe....

mag, apologies for abusing ur blog yet again...*grin*
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on November 1st, 2004 11:53 pm (UTC)
it's really okay, in fact, i welcome the comments. :>
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on November 1st, 2004 11:54 pm (UTC)
thanks a lot. :D *big great watermelon smile, which still can't beat yours* glad i'm first on that long list, and baocheng is last 'cos he pontang too many times. haha. hug hug.