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07 September 2006 @ 11:08 pm
...fool for you  
lost opportunities never return.

but if you grab one too soon, too rashly, for security's sake, for the fact that "lost opportunities never return", will you regret it, will you feel bound, will it suffocate, will you be able to escape when it does?

would i really want to bind myself down at such an early stage? i'm afraid i might be stuck forever. yet i'm afraid that if i leave, i can never return. who would want the cake if you can't eat it?

dissonance before even decisions are made, from a closet commitment-phobe nobody really knows about.


i love wednesdays, like thursdays and dislike fridays. i wish i would just stop dreaming and start studying. i wish i could be focused and disciplined enough to get what i (think i) really want.

it's a good thing bourdeaux made it possible for us to push the blame to social structuring and all so i can say there isn't a whole lot of self-determination in it at all. the only thing is, it leaves me slightly stranded and almost content to accept what ill fate is dealt me. i know that really shouldn't be the case, though.

you know it so much better than i do, maybe you could explain it someday. good people deserve better than the flak you got. good people deserve to feel better than depressed at the end of it.

even though our righteousness are but rags.


perhaps what i really want and need is to be enveloped in good things, nice people, positive thoughts. i want wednesdays. i want to subscribe to the one ideology that grants me hope.

i don't want to be sick and tired of conflicting ideologies anymore.

how do i even start trying?


you've got me wrapped around your finger
 
 
Mood: moody
Music: Cranberries - Linger
 
 
 
Justinagooddaytolive on September 7th, 2006 03:14 pm (UTC)
Do you have to let it linger?
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on September 7th, 2006 03:19 pm (UTC)
this made me smile. nice, isn't it?
Justinagooddaytolive on September 7th, 2006 03:30 pm (UTC)
That was one of my favourite album. And Linger still gives me the shivers. Good night :D
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on September 7th, 2006 03:44 pm (UTC)
hehe that's funny. g'night!
rui81 on September 7th, 2006 03:22 pm (UTC)
oppsss ...


[Rui睿]™
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on September 7th, 2006 03:30 pm (UTC)
i see you got yourself a nice new userpic. :)
rui81 on September 7th, 2006 11:58 pm (UTC)
u seen too much ...

[Rui睿]™
the doob: grey sidefemdog on September 8th, 2006 02:48 pm (UTC)
let us fellow closet commitment-phobes unite.
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on September 9th, 2006 02:26 pm (UTC)
*unites* we ought to commit to one another. hiak hiak.
the doob: grey friendsfemdog on September 9th, 2006 03:43 pm (UTC)
i thought we do? but then again, we hardly meet during term time. sighh.
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on September 9th, 2006 03:56 pm (UTC)
yah lor, i grant you free rein during term time. we're committed to each other only by a very thin string mah. come to think of it, i like my relationships like that (at the moment). heh.

trying to churn out my proposal now and feeling damn sleepy. but if i don't do it tonight, tomorrow i won't be able to sleep 'cos so many things undone. hell.