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22 May 2003 @ 11:14 pm
i don't know why either  
my current mood's somewhere between gloomy and relaxed.
my current song's chances are -- martina mcbride, bob seger.

depressive mode set in at the start of german class. well, maybe not really. it began, i think, last night. duan4 duan xu4 xu4, whenever i recalled the test i had to take this evening. and that i had 0% confidence. 'cos i hadn't touched my books yet.

well, i guess, that's probably not the whole big problem. after all, my german's not all that bad. 3 possible reasons: 1) fu4 zuo4 yong4 of acne pills finally taking effect, 2) pms... dms, rather (for during... tsk), 3) the bloody weather.

the test was passable, of course. only, i find myself getting more and more unsure. this is really important to me... as the course was, for the first time, my choice... and perhaps the remaining shred of my self-esteem is hanging on it.

the relief teacher today seemed to be rushing through the lesson. i was feeling mean and moody. and i think she hates me. 'cos i was quiet and unresponsive. and looked like i'm constantly doing my own stuff. and she said i was speaking too softly. which i don't deny.

after that, for the lack of liza, i walked down orchard road in the comforting company of my own thoughts. not that my usual companions are too noisy, perhaps i am just that anti-social. my soothing discman, the reassuring bubble tea. i so need me time.

that's all folks.
 
 
Mood: depressed
Music: i need you now -- firehouse
 
 
 
(Anonymous) on May 22nd, 2003 09:40 am (UTC)
icq not working. -sigh-
hey!
must be feeling depressed for the lack of my (not liza's!) company right? hehe. kidding la. surprised that you are as anti-social as me leh. haa. there are times that i really do enjoy being a loner. yar not that you guys (my friends) are noisy... totally agree with that. hope you had a gd time with urself just now. felt better? =P
don't worry too much abt the test la... fang4 qing1 song1. aiyo think next time if we go out, i need to ask you whether you got test anot. hehe. if we didnt meet yesterday, you may have more time to remember(!) and mug.
k lah, im awaiting a happier entry next time! things cant go that wrong...really. nitez!

the master of hanyu pinyin. HAHA.

a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on May 22nd, 2003 09:55 am (UTC)
Re: icq not working. -sigh-
ok, i just left you a couple of messages on icq, and it isn't working for you... tsk. i'm still wallowing in self-pity at the moment... hopefully i'll be done with it by the time i wake up tomorrow. and since it'll be completely home-time, me-time for me tomorrow, i really really hope things will start looking up. don't even know how come i became so down suddenly.

no lah, it's ok... i don't need so much time to study german one lah, just that... i said already, don't know why suddenly got so "depressive". must be the acne pills!!! argh!!! hopefully i won't disappoint you my next entry... hehe... thanks alot! nightziez... :)
(Anonymous) on May 22nd, 2003 06:32 pm (UTC)
acne pills
mag, according to my doc ar...the anti-biotics shouldnt be making u feel depress leh...why don u try mine? u have seen how effective it is right? here's the name if u are considering of trying it...(runs to my room to check the name of med) Nimegen.
Give it a try lar. it's q good, except tat u'll have dry lips as the side-effect lor.

killa
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on May 22nd, 2003 10:39 pm (UTC)
Re: acne pills
hey thanks for your info. no lah, my doctor didn't tell me that they're supposed to make me feel depressed, but then i went to search online and apparently tetracycline pills may (may only) cause depression. but out of all the many articles i read, only one mentioned that. so far four months no problem, so i don't seriously think it's caused by the pills lah... after all i'm quite hyper today. haha. i don't really wanna keep changing medication lah, i'm loyal to my tetracaps since they've proven they work to some extent! heehee. thanks anyway!