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11 June 2003 @ 03:49 pm
of crossroads, uncertainty; fear and distrust  
i just called up smu to free up my place in accountancy. the lady who took my call sounded vaguely like mrs. foo, you know the vj science hod, the one who made me cry? anyway the lady sounded so nice and kind and caring and understanding that she made me feel so miserable and guilty for withdrawing from them. she really reminded me of mrs. foo, not that i have any particular like/dislike for mrs. foo... i'm such a forgiving person... i've forgiven biye and xiao huiling eons ago, 'tho i may not neccessarily have forgotten.

it's like, smu has been so... enthusiastic and eager at recruiting/wooing its new students... they keep sending letters and emails and stuff. i was thinking, had i been calling up to reject my place in nus/ntu, i seriously doubt they'd have spoken to me as that "mrs.-foo-sound-alike" had. i'd feel more like just another statistic to nus/ntu, while 'tho i may also be just another statistic for smu, at least they sound so sincere. plus it's like they're so desperate (no negative connotation) for their students, just that they haven't built up a solid reputation yet, so some of the better ones actually prefer nus/ntu.

i wish i didn't so often have to choose between stuff like this. arts/science... it seems to me it might be easier if it was simply ntu vs smu, or engineering vs accountancy. 'cos after all, i've got a direct bus to each smu campus, and that's all that'd really matter to me then. but then, that may be because i'm outside of those dilemmas now, so they all sound less tough decisions to make. please let this be a good path to take... i don't say right/wrong path 'cos there're no rights/wrongs... i just hope to enjoy the walk and may i not have to look back someday and wish i took another.
Mood: pensive
Music: fang xin qu fei -- xiao hu dui
the doobfemdog on June 11th, 2003 09:28 pm (UTC)
hey congrats in finally making a decision leh. you'll be taking up arts & soc hor. i congratulate u cos honestly i think that's a more suitable path for u and also cos that means u'll be with me! yay! :) well unless you decide to abandon me for some reason i can't fathom (yeah i'm chou4 mei3) and hang out everyday with new friends lah.

btw, sorry for being so dumb, but how do u put on ur page the link to ur whole entry ah?
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on June 11th, 2003 10:56 pm (UTC)
Re: :)
nus is like such a prick... how come yn xl they all accept ntu online then they get their matriculation stuff and email addie already, then ours still must go down to be matriculated on a certain date?! somemore arts is one day alone, and i hardly know many people in arts. :< hey who knows, you may be the person making all the new friends man! then you'll leave me out! WAAAHHH!!! you're hostelling aren't you? can go over and stay when i'm bored... haha. yay!
the doobfemdog on June 12th, 2003 02:54 am (UTC)
Re: :)
yeah i'll welcome you! hee. but must see whether i get it first lah.

huh? really? ntu is so efficient! stupid nus. they make matric out to be something so darn important and i have no idea why. it's like swearing-in right? smu even better, just pay 300 bucks and the place is yours haha. but anyway, hehe, i get to take leave! yay! can take leave for the medical exam and the matric, can take whole day some more cos clementi is far away(at least that's the reason i'm gonna give)! ;P
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on June 14th, 2003 04:59 am (UTC)
Re: :)
well, i've like totally no idea how the lousy matriculation thing's gonna be like, but i don't think it's some "ceremony" thingy. my sis says you just line up to collect some stuff etc... that's all. haha ok... don't remind me of the $300 bucks lah. :> wah lau you slacker... make productivity in your family business go down leh!
(Anonymous) on June 14th, 2003 06:51 am (UTC)
so u didnt manage to get back the $300 ??
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on June 15th, 2003 01:27 am (UTC)
Re: $300
nopez... didn't. even. ask... it's stated non-refundable in the letter anyway
the doobfemdog on June 16th, 2003 04:15 am (UTC)
Re: $300
well that's stupid and so money-minded of them. hrmph. 300 bucks isn't exactly a small amount.
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on June 16th, 2003 09:04 am (UTC)
Re: $300
well, i guess they had to use money to make sure people take acceptance seriously... as we all know, many after-jc people are using them as a back-up plan. hmmm... me as well. so to prevent them from just accepting before nus/ntu/overseas universities' results are out, they impose the $300 shit. can't blame them for not returning lah. afterall they did state it was non-refundable. can only blame my indecisiveness... and maybe my parents for thinking i would be forced to take something they want again? hehe :> see i so nice and kind and understanding to smu hor?
the doobfemdog on June 16th, 2003 07:22 pm (UTC)
Re: $300
woah...yeah...you are too kind man. anyway what you said also makes sense lah, i guess they have their reasons. well, it's glad to see that you can think in such a mature and reasonable way...hahahaha...congrats! ;p
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on June 16th, 2003 10:51 pm (UTC)
Re: $300
hey hey hey i always think reasonably and maturely ok... tsk tsk