In my life, Lord,
Be glorified, be glorified;
In my life, Lord,
Be glorified today.
Surely the arm of the Lord is not too short to save, nor his ear too dull to hear. -- Isaiah 59:1
truly, this second round of alpha has been great, different as it is from the first. sometimes, i might tend to think, maybe i'm getting a little "too blessed to be blessed"; but no, apparently, not, yet. there have been many times when some of us thought/felt that it was gonna be a disappointment; but no, He has done it again. looking back at everything now, it had really seemed just so far away, so impossible, at that time, as with our first alpha.
if i were to attempt to tell of my life story, i don't think i could ever even hope to finish telling of His abounding grace throughout the entirety of my life, for there's simply been too much, too much to give thanks for. seriously, if you've been picked back up from the danky dumps, lifted up from the depths of depression, turned back from the impulses of suicide, and basically had the whole wretched wreck of your life set right back in good order once again, i think, you'd wanna hang on tight and never ever let go too, for all the good that He has done for you. and that's me, all summed up in one short(!) sentence.
really touched by what you people shared today, even if you might have thought that it wasn't very much at all, but it meant a whole lot to me. :) although i only said so little today, and probably in a pretty sheepish tone too... but you all know that i write much better than i speak what. *self-praise*
actually i really have a lot to say and so much to give thanks for one, but then it didn't really seem very relevant to the question leh... actually, one of the most recent major things that i really have to thank Him for, is for setting me into the right perspective. and once i got to see the problems i was facing from that point of view, i was much better able to let go, much much easier than i would actually have been by my own strength. and i really, really thank Him for that. i know it doesn't sound very impressive a testimony at all here, this way i'm describing it, but the true wonder of experiencing it, the enormous burden He has lifted off my shoulders, is really beyond the description of my words (due to the lack of skill or whatsoever).
i remember, not long before i was set in perspective, before everything just clicked, i was praying desperately and i asked, why does the song i had learnt since i was a kid in the church's kindergarten, "what a friend we have in Jesus", go: "Oh, what peace we often forfeit, /Oh what needless pain we bear, /All because we do not carry /Ev'rything to God in prayer!" why do the lyrics say that, when i had already carried everything that was bothering me, to You, in prayer... why was i still in unpeace and pain? that very night, i was set free again.
sometimes, i wonder, do i have to go through all this, time and again, only so that i can be of witness to Him and His great power? but whatever it is, i'm just so glad that life in Christ is (or will eventually be, if it isn't yet for you) a victorious one. amen?