part of me wishes to go back in time, when we were known as the nco squad 99/00, or sec three squad, or sec two squad, or even sec one squad. we yi qi tong-gan-gong-ku-ed through the years, pumping, doing sit-ups, star jumps, running to and fro the lamp posts, suppressing giggles in squad formation... we united together to curse and swear at our squad n's, rallied together to bitch about the ci's when we became ncos ourselves, and even demanded a confrontation.
do you remember the time when jiaying stepped on the football in an attempt to kick it, and fell down, and then we had to look for an ice bag, and then bring her to a doctor, all right before some major parade in first u? do you remember when jicong and weiliang4 and some of the naughty guys didn't wash their first u, and insisted that it wasn't them, and kena scolded by miss pear, who refused to punish also the girls' squad, unlike the stinky cis? do you remember when the oc got his hair burnt at the campfire during atc because the sock of fire dropped too close to his head?
do you remember xiushen called weiliang4 "mai gou" in front of the cis during a punishment session? do you remember junda called us his "colleagues"? do you remember zhu weijie made weiliang2 run the basketball courts in eighty steps, over and over again, because he was "too cocky"? and hu rizhu made us commando crawl in the mud while she herself didn't do it? and the time when which nan dui kicked a football and hit junrui's head while he was in his squad and he fainted?
of course i also remember some of the many times when we were unhappy with one another. we argued, we quarrelled, we might even have fought. but my dearest squadmates, the word "squabble" also begins with the same first four letters... okay, that was really lame. but somehow, it seems, mainly only the good, fun memories remain, their happy feelings more deeply etched than those angry ones.
i'm still excited when we talk about the past, i laugh at all the same jokes, told time and again, but i'm not fuming mad at the people who kept on snatching flags from groups during leisure camp anymore, i don't hate the cis anymore, i don't really care that feng yaohua might be a traitor or a doubleheaded snake anymore...
but i know very clearly that going back in time is simply not possible, impossible, except for in memories. besides, i guess, we're all probably much happier to be here and now, than to go back to the past. in the past, we had our own very different set of problems... those problems, today, long solved, long over, maybe long forgotten; what seemed so big, so daunting, so problematic for us in the past, today, we have probably already kan-ed tou.
so many, so many things have changed. even memories may have changed, as each time we recall and perhaps shape it a little to our liking, our purposes. like weixiang's admirers... did he really have an admirer in xinlian's squad? or did he only have that one admirer, heehee. and who was zhenhao's admirer? or was it guanyi's? and is he still having soup specially boiled for him by qiushi? *grin*
okay, yes, i know, this isn't another gossip session... :p the bottomline is, without the big bunch of you, i would have one big gaping hole in my life. though i can't say i absolutely loved my secondary school days, you all really added a whole lot of se cai into my life. and this is about one of the only things i really, really thank np for. :)