why do i still not have time, and am constantly fatigued, despite not having touched neopets for a while? the days pass slowly. i need more "wait"s, more "persevere"s, more "hope"s. i need to hear! i know our suffering, our grief is but "a little while" to You, but it seems to span an entire eternity for us! how long, how long more, how.long.more?! i want to hear, i need to hear, i want to understand, i want to understand, i want to understand! i want every day to hear, not even just every other, for every day's a drag, but work, the tyranny of the urgent compels me away many a time, but i really need sustenance!
oh, the pain, the misery... lent's a miserable, painful season. i can't bear the thought that You did what You did, for all of me, i still will not to give it up, i feel totally incapable of that, even if it isn't Your demand of me. everything's about me, everything's i will, i want, i, i, me, me, me... but i can't shrug me off, or it's hard to, really hard, so hard it hurts. but i really, really want to hear... and surely that want is alright, is pleasing? no? let me hear, again, today, tonight, pretty please. or surely, i thirst to death.