to that very small teeny weeny part of me, that really tiny little piece of heart i lost to your charm only not so long ago, despite never having ever dreamt i would:

in no less than two hundred and fifty hours' time, we shall be reunited. reunited! what exactly your appeal to me, where exactly you attract me, i don't know, and i can't place. but i do know i love you, and i can't wait. i can't wait! i shall confess i've always been a pretty 崇洋媚外 person, so i'm surprised. i can't get down to studying for my exams (of which i'm currently in the midst of), 'cos i simply can't wait to set my eyes on you again. so, for those interested in my cap at the moment, know that it shall continue its downward plunge, haha.

seriously, i know this is way too idealistic thinking, but right now, part of me kinda wishes that this were gonna be my final year, so that, you know, i can sorta get on with life. i've got new aspirations! (okay, i see some of you rolling your eyes already, yeah, what a time to come, during exam period, right, haha!) 三分钟热度, maybe. but guess it doesn't hurt to dream, does it? somebody, fairly recently, implied it doesn't, haha! will i attempt to fulfil it? perhaps. it is workable, really; the course of it provides a 后路 should i change my mind halfway through it. unless, of course, i start having vastly divergent ideas. (not totally unlikely, though, heehee.)

back to the original topic sparking off this post, i've promised myself i shan't hold back anymore when we shall meet again this time; i shall throw myself into it. (but then again, how crazy can i get, anyway?) i sincerely hope and pray nothing will ruin this again; let it come to pass this time, and let not murphy's(?) law reign! sweetie, throw your doors open for me!


p.s.: late last night, i read somebody's testimony which so won me over that i really... don't know what to say. everything is so real, so human, and so raw; so familiar, so understandable, just... so human. which, again, reaffirms that God is real; God must be real, to be able to work, so far away, in other people's lives, yet so similar. it's almost amazing. perhaps i shan't mince my words so. it is absolutely amazing!

quote:

"I truly believe God exists ... He changed a lot of things in my life ... I feel that if it weren't for God, there wouldn't be anyone who could give me such happiness."

wow. to read that from someone i'd hardly have linked to christianity. quote again:

"His grace is uncountable."