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14 April 2006 @ 04:27 pm
regarding pain, but then drifting on to other stuff  
we've been on the topic of pain for quite a bit this week, haven't we? well, the pastor preaching today touched upon it again. apart from the universal description of intense pain as effectively blocking out every other thing that might once have existed within our world, he also spoke briefly about the timeless sensation it creates.

which led me to drift off for a while, thinking upon the numbers of essays i have written since i entered college, on that same topic, albeit for different classes. pleasure and pain, considered together, have always been a sort of source of puzzlement and intrigue for me, for i do not think that they are really mutually exclusive. (of course, the following is totally not going to have anything to do with the sermon this morning. but of course again, if you want to hear what the preacher had to say, wait for it to be posted up; you know where to look for it.)

okay, having said that, i suddenly find that i don't have anything really left to say anymore. (as usual.) you know our "universal" real-life example of the paradox, or just one side of that. aside from that, i suspect there's a difference between merely talking about pain and pleasure in themselves alone, and talking about people deriving both pain and pleasure out of certain things... unfortunately, i think my mental faculties still aren't developed enough or are just too spent (from simultaneous hell weeks) at the moment to attempt that.

on that note, as i was just going through my essays from the previous years, i came to the sudden realisation that, as compared to the time at which i had written those particular papers, now, i have so much clearer and more refined (and possibly even very different) an idea of the things i had once written about. and i can't imagine how i had once dared, with such a vague, fuzzy notion of what i thought it was then, to attempt to cheat my way through. but then again, think about it, i do that still. and likely, years down the road, i would look back at what i had written only recently, and think it lame.


okay, and on to something totally new--would you consider a trip abroad a "grad trip" still, if you were the one graduating but were travelling with other people who weren't graduating or had already graduated some time ago (i.e. you are the only person graduating in that group)? or supposing you were the only person not graduating, but were travelling with a whole bunch of other people who were graduating, would you still consider that a "grad trip"? yes, i am that obsessed with definitions, though after so many years of learning that essentially everything is arbitrary and means totally nothing, i should already know better.

and, does somebody have a suggestion for a good remote webhosting site? graffiti seems to be failing me... do you see that my journal background either does not appear or takes a thousand years to load, or is that just my problem? i want some place that allows me not only to post image files up, but also documents, videos, etc. (okay, this paragraph is starting to sound like a typical lazy sg_ljers post.)

right, so long for now. :)


before i really leave off, i just wanted to say, i am so very aware of my own limitations, so many things i cannot do, so many solutions i cannot give, so many things i wish for you but am powerless to realise, but the song is dedicated to you. again, i would never rot on you.
Mood: on your side
Music: The Rembrandts (Friends OST) - I'll Be There For You
rui81 on April 14th, 2006 09:07 am (UTC)
I'm here for u too!

hope things would be better on your side in the coming weeks...

have a great wonderful weekend ....

a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on April 14th, 2006 03:34 pm (UTC)
thanks!! okay, you just made my weekend. heehee. :)
rui81 on April 15th, 2006 04:15 am (UTC)
I wanted to destory it ... but i din know how ... so i made it lor //

a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on April 15th, 2006 04:46 pm (UTC)
hehe lame joke until i dunno what to say. :p say goodnight to you before i go sleep. NITEZ!!
rui81 on April 16th, 2006 06:43 am (UTC)
dun dream of me ...

the doobfemdog on April 15th, 2006 07:50 am (UTC)
i would consider a grad trip as a trip that is meant to celebrate some person's graduation. and you don't need everyone to be graduating just to celebrate it with you right?

anyway, who cares if you all just wanna have fun?
the doob: deliriumfemdog on April 15th, 2006 07:51 am (UTC)
that said, are you planning to go on one? where and with whom? heehee.
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on April 15th, 2006 10:50 am (UTC)
don't you know? i'm bringing my wife and mistress on a holiday. haha no lah don't start crying... i was just considering the definitions... not currently planning a trip with any gradding people; eks isn't gradding this sem either. hiak hiak.
the doob: deliriumfemdog on April 15th, 2006 01:06 pm (UTC)
wow how did you know i was gonna cry... 不愧(correct or not? i forgot it's which kui)是我老婆。

anyway, maybe we should plan a grad trip next year! sounds exciting! especially when we've never gone on a holiday together before, you and i. :D
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on April 15th, 2006 04:39 pm (UTC)
i won't know if your chinese is correct or not. haha. you and me--lifehouse. hehe. hopefully that will be possible! we haven't had our honeymoon yet up 'til now hor.
the doob: sethfemdog on April 15th, 2006 06:34 pm (UTC)
yah lor... we didn't even 摆 a proper 酒席 man.
wah now i'm so looking forward to it. even though it's like so far in the future. :)
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on April 16th, 2006 09:52 am (UTC)
do you think we might ever be able to go on a holiday to somewhere far away one day? it would be so fantastic if it could become a reality someday... *toys with idea*
the doob: sethfemdog on April 16th, 2006 10:31 am (UTC)
define "far away"?
i would go ANYWHERE with you, hello. ;)
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on April 17th, 2006 01:38 pm (UTC)
being the worm sheep small-sister outside, "far away" equals to somewhere like europe. haha.
the doobfemdog on April 17th, 2006 02:34 pm (UTC)
can! i also want to go! only i scared i don't have the lui. :(
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on April 18th, 2006 06:37 am (UTC)
haha never mind you have time to earn it. work hard in hangzhou ah.
the doobfemdog on April 18th, 2006 02:44 pm (UTC)
sorry ah, the stuff that i'm working hard on doesn't pay one. and i'm basically 败家-ing, spending a lot here.
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on April 15th, 2006 10:46 am (UTC)
yah but so it's a grad trip for you (you're gradding), but would it be a grad trip for the others as well? just wondering hehe. but yes, fun is topmost!
the doobfemdog on April 15th, 2006 01:01 pm (UTC)
ok then it won't be a grad trip for the others la.

but again, WHO CARES? just call it a Fun Trip, then everybody will have Fun and TADAA it will be a Fun Trip for everybody.

you and your obsession with definitions... amusing.