a little less than the girl next door (in_transit) wrote,
a little less than the girl next door
in_transit

  • Mood:

one sick entry

at five-plus this morning, a horrible swirly headachey feeling roused me from my sleep. my alarm due to ring only at seven, and being a i-hate-to-miss-any-sleep person, i tried to go back to sleep. but with no avail; every time i moved my head a little, things in my head swirled like crazy. finally at about five-forty, i gave up and got out of bed. only to realise that my stomach felt most terrible, and had to run to the toilet to hurl. puke. vomit. whatever. after which, i tried to go back to bed and lie down, hoping that my head would feel better. unfortunately, it didn't. in fact, it felt worst. so i got up again. only to need to puke again. so the bed-to-toilet trips took place repeatedly (like three to four times) before i came to the conclusion that every time i got out of bed, i would wanna puke.

so i ended up sitting down in front of the toiletbowl, cradling my head. and it did make my head feel a little little bit better. unfortunately, i had already puked like six times and was ready to die liao. the things that went through my (swirly) head... (1) must have been the half-pot of cold green bean i took right before i went to sleep. (2) i didn't work on the comp for extended hours in the dark so it couldn't be that. (3) could it have been syntax and/or thai construction worries? (4) the grandaunt? (can't be, she left only not long ago.) (5) did i do anything absolutely evil and/or wrong to deserve immediate punishment recently? (couldn't think of any.) (6) i don't want to die--i haven't handed in my homework i spent hours on, i haven't got comments back on my research proposal, etc. yet, and i have a thai class to attend at noon!

anyway, everything that i puked out was green bean, since i hardly ate anything else the day before. it was even coming out of my nose. i definitely couldn't make it to school. and didn't wanna hafta puke on public transport either. what was worse, the doctor wasn't even open yet. close to nine, i practically crawled my way to the doc's with my dad and yati. she gave me a jab in the butt. (first time since maybe when i was a baby!) and came to the conclusion about some gastric flu thingy. and gave me an mc. it's a good thing my only class today was thai, and it's my free day tomorrow, and my group members kindly postponed our meeting this morning to friday. it's a strange thing 'cos i was thinking, it seems, sickness only happens when you most don't want and/or can't afford for it to happen. i didn't wanna miss school today. i had things to do--i had to collect my library book, get readings from a friend, hand in my work and attend a very competitive class! how come when i can better afford to skip school, this doesn't happen?

so, just like the ate-too-many-eggs-kena-indigestion experience in jc2, i think i shall be staying away from green bean for a while. i think i always have problems with food. overeating and stuff. i can [not eat] and be not hungry for the longest times. i can eat excessively at one go. and i can eat continually throughout the day. don't know why. sigh. it's not really the hurling part that kills me (though that is horrible as well). but the swirly headache part is by far the worst. i absolutely hate headaches. and i couldn't determine if it was the headache that was causing the puking, or the puking that was inducing the headache. i briefly wondered how it would be like if i were to have to go through this everyday, like chemo patients (in my imagination). and came to the immediate conclusion that it would probably be better off dying. i can hardly begin to describe the misery i went through this morning.

the medicine took its effect and i slept from close to ten 'til four-plus. i currently still have that swirly headache, but it feels much better now and i'm not puking anymore. which means i'm also no longer dehydrated. looks like i probably won't be dying anytime soon. by the way, the doctor has this weird instruction that i should take two mouthfuls of soft food each time and then rest. this sickness to me seems a little hilarious... but it did make me think a little on my own mortality. (just like isaiah said he did when he was lying on the hospital bed, femdog, if you remember.) now i've officially missed one of every module's lessons excepting syntax. but i guess i probably shouldn't keep thinking of school. oh well, God speed my recovery and help me give my best in whatever i do. amen.
Subscribe

  • 懒熊

    yesterday we went night safari. took the tram twice, did all the trails, and saw many animals. but had to miss the creatures of the night show…

  • a korean addiction

    had a very busy week managing an intense onset of kdrama addiction in between everything else and sudden urgent assignments. the result of my not…

  • highly recommend 我们唱着的歌

    just watched on netflix, six years late, a very moving local documentary - 我们唱着的歌 the songs we sang. i actually started the show only to have…

  • Post a new comment

    Error

    default userpic

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.
  • 13 comments

  • 懒熊

    yesterday we went night safari. took the tram twice, did all the trails, and saw many animals. but had to miss the creatures of the night show…

  • a korean addiction

    had a very busy week managing an intense onset of kdrama addiction in between everything else and sudden urgent assignments. the result of my not…

  • highly recommend 我们唱着的歌

    just watched on netflix, six years late, a very moving local documentary - 我们唱着的歌 the songs we sang. i actually started the show only to have…