of care

once, one of those random off-the-net personality tests i tried out came up with something like this,
"The INFP is quick to find a personal angle in any critical comment, whether or not anything personal was intended. They will tend to take any sort of criticism as a personal attack on their character, and will usually become irrational and emotional in such situations."
which i immediately recognised as something somewhat familiar to me.

i try not to let this happen too often, i don't know if it's just me overanalysing, being oversensitive, or what, but so many times, i just find myself wondering,
huh? i didn't do this to you, so why do you do this to me? why are you doing this to me??
or
when something like this happened in the past, this was how i had responded to you, so why are you doing it differently back to me this time? what have i done to make you deem it a necessity for you to respond in such manner?

once again, it's very probably just my really ridiculous belief in reciprocity that's so passe already. could be, as always, my own problem of holding too tightly to a personal, almost-obsolete "value", causing this disjunct, inability to reconcile...

well, it's really nothing very much at all.
but...
but...
why??
what were you thinking??