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16 July 2011 @ 06:04 am
battling irrationality  
from thefridayfive:

1. What is your most irrational fear or dislike (i.e. something most people are fine with, or something that brings back bad memories)?
unfortunately, i am a person of many fears. among them, i am terrified of having people disappear on me -- turning around to find someone i expected to be there suddenly missing. for that ridiculous reason, i am very appreciative of people who keep me constantly updated on where they are going.

once, i was changing in my room for church when i heard the main door of the house click shut. at that moment, i somehow believed that my dad had left home without me, and without even bothering to inform me. fear-stricken for some strange reason, i actually cried; this was already in my late teens/early twenties, sheesh. it was only a couple of minutes later that i realised the irrationality of it all (i also heard other noises at home that confirmed he was still around). i wiped my eyes, finished changing and emerged from my room like nothing happened, so no one ever knew about it.

2. Describe your last (or only) encounter with the police.
i think we sang ktv together, lol.

3. What's the biggest secret about yourself that you've ever revealed, accidentally or on purpose?
don't know, can't remember, ask colin -- i'm sure she has loads of info that can be used for blackmail... of course, it goes both ways. :p

actually, many of the things i reveal here, both privately and publicly, are pretty big secrets to me. but nothing really blackmailable, in case anyone was wondering.

4. When is the last time you were really, really angry? Did you do anything drastic because you were so angry?
well, i guess i often get into rages that pass as quickly as they come.

i think the most drastic thing i ever did in anger was to grab the keys to the door, planning to head up to the roof, climb over the parapet wall or something. but again, the stupidness of it all struck me as i was sticking the key into the padlock. this was 1996 after a trivial quarrel with a friend. i had a similar impulse as i looked down the school building from the viewing gallery after i received my report card in 1998. silly, now. (but i still find it hard to totally forgive the oppressive, unforgiving environment back then.)

i'm glad to say that i stopped having such impulses (which first occurred in the 1980s) after 2003, after i re-found God... or God re-found me? so, please don't think i'm crazy.

5. If you could raise someone from the dead, who would it be, why, and do you think he or she would be happy to be alive again?
the first person who comes to mind is my uncle, who died very suddenly last year. i don't know if he would be happy to be alive again, but i think his young son and wife would be.
Mood: sleepy
Music: 陳潔儀 - 倔強
the doob: twist endingfemdog on July 16th, 2011 05:24 pm (UTC)
About no. 1, I don't remember you being frightened after I suddenly disappeared from you and colin while walking up the steps of the movie theatre... in fact you guys kept laughing at me throughout 8 Mile. -_-
a little less than the girl next door: smilein_transit on July 17th, 2011 08:58 pm (UTC)
that one happened too suddenly and was over just as suddenly, lol. strangely enough, i remember NOTHING of 8 mile but i can remember very clearly the nice neat tear in your then-new giordano jeans!
the doobfemdog on July 18th, 2011 05:54 am (UTC)
And I've boycotted Giordano jeans ever since... ;P
winkibowinkibo on July 18th, 2011 04:07 pm (UTC)
erm, no. 2 for me?!! haha..
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on July 19th, 2011 09:39 pm (UTC)
YEAH! i don't have much experience with the police...