just now i was quite (more than a little, really) downcast. no, not about schoolwork. we (femdog and i) had gone for dinner at clementi mac's after our lectures, and on the way home at the mrt station, we met a senior from secondary school. crapped and reminisced those... np days abit... and then she fleetingly mentioned some little stuff which, well, just made me feel... slightly affected. i thought it was almost over, almost over... but apparently, no matter how "almost over" it seems, it's still not all over yet. but i promise it is gonna be over, in time; it will, and i can't wait. i know occasionally i might still wonder how i could have let such a (insert some ego-boosting terms) slip out of my fingers; i'm jealous, i'm envious. but i guess, ultimately, it's not the things of this world i should be hankering after -- my motives are wrong, direction is wrong, everything's haywire.
You love me so much, why do i spurn You? why do i court sorrow and grief when comfort and peace are presented at my doorstep? i may forget You, but for eternity, You will remain true and relentless in Your pursuit for my heart. thank You, once again. You never, ever fail to wow me.