a little less than the girl next door (in_transit) wrote,
a little less than the girl next door
in_transit

thanksgiving 2019

dear journal, it's thanksgiving so i'll give a little note of thanks here. i'm thankful i have a God, who, despite my daily disobedience, parted the red sea for me and then brought me on this long walk all across and around the desert and finally canaan is just over yonder! i am thankful that this belief that He is real has helped me hold on for so very long to this distant hope and will no doubt continue to sustain me in the days ahead. ever so often i come back to this conclusion that i repeat to myself all the time -- i guess we'll only know for sure if He is really real after we're gone, and by then it wouldn't matter if He isn't, but it'd be an eternity of regret if He is.

i'm thankful for the people who love me and who genuinely care about me. and those who've been infinitely understanding and supportive, and those who just seem to get me. i'm thankful for safe spaces. i'm thankful for privilege, and that even when i feel i've been unjustly treated by others, i can eventually still recognise that "has not God and life so often tilted the balance 'unfairly' to my advantage?" i'm thankful that i've been so very blessed, after all.

of course it's so much easier to be thankful when there are things for one to be happy and hopeful about; i need to bear in mind that this, too, will pass. in the days ahead, i want to remember to be more contented with what i already have and i want to try to be a kinder person. though i may need to revisit this very often as a reminder, lol.

i would like to have another cat.
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