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19 April 2004 @ 01:11 am
isaiah 26:3  
you'd think that guybrush would get nightmares from the prolonged intensive chasing-after-and-fighting-to-kill-fish-fish last night. guess who got the nightmare instead? in the dark of the night, sweaty under the thick comforter, the "high velocity" fan rendered useless from the humid surrounding air, i battled countless little demonic kittens, throwing them one by one out the living room window as they clung on to my hands and arms with razor-sharp teeth and flesh-digging, blood-drawing claws... oh the horrors. (and fish-fish, by the way, is a multi-colour-feathered little fish-like object attached to one end of an elastic string.)

on to something else, pastor lee's (some of you'd know him as fredric. teehee~) sermon today was something about freedom in Christ. the central topic was on fear. Jesus tells us to choose faith, not fear. as people living in a world of chaos and turmoil, confusion, uncertainty, besieged by evil, it is true that we have plenty to fear and worry about each day. of course, from the global perspective, there's war and unrest between the nations, corruption and poverty rife in some countries, economic instability almost worldwide. within singapore itself, there's fear of an aging population, a growing complacency in the younger generations, increased competition among locals and foreigners, all that talk about our lack of natural resources etc etc. but even within our very selves, fear is able to manifest itself everywhere. talk about gripping fear -- it can establish a vice-like hold on you. in a way, i think it clings on like those demonic kittens in my dream that i fought so hard to shake loose. it can root you to the ground -- you are rendered incapable of action. there are many things i am fearful of... i'm afraid my cap score will fall (yes, just 'cos i don't study very much doesn't mean i'm not scared!), i'm afraid of what the future might hold for me -- what will i do after college, what's in store for me, who's my significant other, what will happen to us, how will i eventually die... i'm afraid of the "real" world of mercenary people and backstabbers out there (according to daddy) which i will have to meet once i go out to work (also according to daddy), i also sometimes hesitate to share the gospel with close friends and people who mean a lot to me, for the fear of rejection, ridicule and scorn... all this, despite the joy and peace i know i've experienced through Him and all that He's done in my life, all He's done to change me.

that was a pretty long paragraph of fears, wasn't it? but behold, He makes all things new (revelations 21:5, king james version) -- remember that He has conquered satan, death and all evil on the cross, when He died for our sins and rose again, that whoever believes in Him may not die but have eternal life -- we have the final victory in Him! it would not be wrong to say that if we are held bondage by fear, satan already has half his battle won without having to come up with any real action; and that is precisely how he likes to keep us under subjugation -- through fear -- fear of the unknown, fear of the possibilities, what may come (but might not happen). it is wonderful that pastor lee brought up isaiah 43, one of my very favourite passages for its very comforting and soothing nature. Do not fear, do not fear, I Am the Lord... wow... guess who's on our side?
If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all--how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? -- Romans 8:31-32

i was especially touched (again), when at the end of the sermon, my fervent prayers regarding (certain) recent anxieties were answered again when the pianist and violinist started playing. this answer had already been made known to me yesterday afternoon out of the blue (in the bath, actually), but i still wasn't say exactly sure about it then. so here comes a reassurance... and you know, this song isn't even in the hymnals on the pews that we use, so it's like only once in a blue moon that they'd play it during service. amazing... but i believe, for my hope and trust is in Him, and Him alone.

In His time, in His time
He makes all things beautiful, in His time
Lord, please show me everyday
As You're teaching me Your way
That You do just what You say, in Your time

In Your time, in Your time
You make all things beautiful, in Your time
Lord, my life to You I bring
May each song I have to sing
Be to You a lovely thing, in Your time

Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God--this is your spiritual act of worship. -- Romans 12:1

and in commemoration of my 300th post (many days past), here's a picture of senny and me on 17th march (rina and sq are opposite us so you can't see them). you could take this as an analogy of how our dependence on the beautiful promises of our mighty God brings about joy and contentment. (heehee) And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Amen.

from here
Mood: optimistic
Music: in His time
(Anonymous) on April 18th, 2004 07:57 pm (UTC)
why did u put this one up, instead of the other one, in which i look better? *challenge ar...*

/*wrote something else bout why i like the way u write, but since im seeing u in church later, i might as well tell you later. spare u from the embarrassement for putting that up for all to see? --- actually it's becos i don really know how to put them down in words. hihi*/
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on April 18th, 2004 08:04 pm (UTC)
because i look less spastic in this one lah. haha.

//ok so now the whole world knows you take computing. :p
(Anonymous) on April 19th, 2004 06:40 am (UTC)
Just wanna see if you know mar....yar lar, and wanna show off a bit mar.

So happy to have Rina at my place. Hey, so looking forward to our gathering after our exams leh....