a little less than the girl next door (in_transit) wrote,
a little less than the girl next door

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the disappointment in being "bond-free"

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts..." -- Isaiah 55:8-9

perhaps i did pray to find out, maybe i did ask to know, so that i'd stop being misled, if i were. in fact, that was precisely my prayer, about two nights ago, before i found out, much as it abhors me to admit. but i'm still taking a little time to absorb all that, and analyse a bit...... i actually tend to prefer to think of bad news as coincidences, rather than, well, in this case, answered prayer. :< but as i hugged that verse (above) to the little bit of sleep i managed last night, or this morning rather, i chose to believe. we humans can sometimes get really short-sighted -- what might seem like horrendous news at this very moment, may just turn out to be something worth much rejoicing over in years to come...

"...Was my arm too short to ransom you? Do I lack the strength to rescue you? By a mere rebuke I dry up the sea, I turn rivers into a desert; their fish rot for lack of water and die of thirst. I clothe the sky with darkness and make sackcloth its covering."

The Sovereign Lord has given me an instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary. He wakens me morning by morning, wakens my ear to listen like one being taught. The Sovereign Lord has opened my ears, and I have not been rebellious; I have not drawn back.
-- Isaiah 50:2-5

and this very morning, i receive certain encouragement and relief from the uncertainty of last night. it's horrible how my much-less-than-a-mustard-seed of faith is so easily shaken by the little cuo4 ze2s of life; and wonderful how He answers even my little teeny-weeny thoughts to strengthen that minute existence of what can hardly even be called faith anymore. i vaguely remember, in the confusion and incoherence of last night's prayer, asking for more confirmation, so that i could be sure it wasn't merely a coincidence... but on second thoughts, i think my God would be merciful enough to limit my loss of sleep to one night only bah. :>

And my eyes they look unto You always

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