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10 August 2004 @ 11:16 pm
i secretly miss you quite a bit. i guess i won't say "a lot" 'cos i'm not even sure of how exactly i really feel. i only know a queased-up stomach and that queer tingle through the soles of my feet. and now that everyone's left and i'm seated in front of the comp listening to such music, i don't have other people to think about. but i'm sure i won't do anything.

why do people sometimes have such set notions of what constitutes love, or like? it's a messed-up world.

i don't even wanna go on msn; i don't think you'll be there, but i don't even wanna talk to you today.

how could you do such a thing to me now that school's starting again?? i'm on the ivle page but i don't even wanna look at it, i don't even wanna click on it, and all i wanna do is to think of you, think of you 'til you sneeze your head off. or are you already? i'm sorry...
Mood: melancholy
Music: look what you've done -- jet
(Anonymous) on August 11th, 2004 09:47 am (UTC)
aiyo....so mushy auntie....goodness!! will pray for u leh~~~ *grin* this last updated sure make u sound love-struck....

wonder how many guys out there are going to think that u r referring to them. hoi..all of u out there...she's NOT referring to u, ok? *hahahaa...im crazy.

a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on August 11th, 2004 11:16 pm (UTC)
hai. why is my liking for someone measured by my such-genre entries? just 'cos my hearbeat doesn't increase when i see him, just 'cos i'm not "sad" when he's not around, doesn't necessarily mean i don't like him... similarly, just 'cos i compose such "emotionally-charged" entries about him doesn't have to mean i'm head-over-heels for him either.

anyway, i'm not love-struck, i'm just bored. and it's horrible how so many guys out there might think i have a crush on them or something. worst, when i don't.
(Anonymous) on August 12th, 2004 06:37 am (UTC)
yar lar, yar lar...i know it is shallow of me to say all that i've said bout the not sad when he's not around...hmph~~
the doobfemdog on August 12th, 2004 11:40 pm (UTC)
i miss that.
hai. at least you're in the midst of liking someone. i know it's not easy living with that strange feeling, but somehow i miss that feeling. even feeling helpless about it gives me some sort of comfort. i know it sounds weird and masochistic even, but not liking anyone, not subjected to the pain of knowing it won't work out, it sucks. i guess it's because despite the hurt, the feeling of liking someone actually gives me hope and of course that indescribable feeling in my heart. not liking someone just makes me feel empty inside. and i can tell you, the situation of "not here not there" is worse.

sigh :(
a little less than the girl next doorin_transit on August 14th, 2004 07:40 am (UTC)
Re: i miss that.
totally know what you mean lah, sometimes i think i subject myself to that... as in, like, maybe now... maybe i just don't have anybody to rave about, so i like to do such things to myself. like feeling good making myself feel miserable. crazy masochistic beings we are, aren't we? *shrugs*
the doobfemdog on August 15th, 2004 03:29 am (UTC)
Re: i miss that.
yeah i totally agree. if you noticed, right after you posted this entry, i went to post something about someone too cos i started thinking again about it. we are mad lah.
dreamerjarcheenta on August 22nd, 2004 06:34 am (UTC)
Re: i miss that.
...and i thought i was the only weirdo.